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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 11:25

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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As i do to all so called friends.?

It was going to be , some day.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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I never cut or harmed myself..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

What did i know ?

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Who then, do I blame.?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Why do I want to be caught sucking dick by my wife?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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My life is so biszare .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Why do some people never get to on a date even though they wanted to? Are they just too ugly and weird for everybody?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Atheists, there is a god up there in heaven and he loves you so much that he sent his son to die the worst death imaginable and then to turn into a zombie all to save you from sin. Why do you reject him?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

When she asked me how she looked .

I have no regrets .

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

This is soul school!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I could never make a relationship work though!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I think the readers, may guess!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Especially a lifetime of it.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was very sick at this time too.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Im still living with it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I was seconnd youngest,

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

But, we were locked up after school.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She wouldn,t have been !

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I waited trembling.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I write beautiful poetry .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She married twice! .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But it wasn’t much.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

So whats the point in blame.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She found it foreign!.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

So, i spoilt her more .

I was 9 years of age.

She loved him until the end.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I will be 64.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Would this be the day?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

(And it was in our own minds.)

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She was in good health!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Put me off passion for life!!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

One cannot live in the past .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Ive learnt so much.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He knew the spot.

I was scared of men, in general

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

We were not on the streets..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And i lived it daily.

Comes on , in middle age.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My family never makes their pension either.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I said to her

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

All the time i was locked up.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We all went to grammer schools

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I don,t even have a pension.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!